still there

Just for the record, esti inca aici. Pe undeva prin mine. Peste tot de fapt. Sunt recunoscatoare totusi celor trei dumnezei ai mei, pentru ca nu stiu care din ei a lucrat mai intens aseara cand mi s-a facut rau si apoi am adormit inainte sa apas pe send la mesajul “Te rog uita pt totdeauna msj asta, dar te iubesc…”. L-am gasit pe ecranul telefonului dimineata. Thank you. Urasc ideile astea care par atat de bune la anumite momente ale noptii.

Si totusi, esti inca aici. Nu-i nimic. Astept sa pleci. O sa pleci pana la urma. De tot. Si la propriu si la figurat. Imi fac eu de lucru pana atunci. Problema e ca am obosit si incepe sa se vada. Am obosit sa ma prefac indiferenta fata de tine si prietenoasa fata de ea. Nu-i nimic, am doua zile pauza sa am odihnesc. Luni o luam de la capat. Si intr-o buna zi o sa ma trezesc de dimineata si o sa remarc ca indiferenta a ajuns reala.

i know just how to whisper
and i know just how to cry
i know just where to find the answers
and i know just how to lie

i know just how to fake it
and i know just how to scheme
i know just when to face the truth
and then i know just when to dream

and i know just where to touch you
and i know just what to prove
i know when to pull you closer
and i know when to let you loose

and i know the night is fading
and i know the time´s gonna fly
and i never gonna tell you everything i gotta tell you
but i know i gotta give it a try

and i know the roads to riches
and i know the ways to fame
i know all the rules and then i
know how to break them
and i always know the name of the game

but i don´t know how to leave you
and i´ll never let you fall
and i don´t know how you do it
making love out of nothing at all

out of nothing at all
out of nothing at all
out of nothing at all (making love)
out of nothing at all (making love)
out of nothing at all (making love)
out of nothing at all

every time i see you all the rays of the sun
are streaming through the waves in your hair
and every star in the sky
is taking aim at your eyes like a spotlight

the beating of my heart is a drum and it´s lost
and it´s looking for a rythm like you
you can take the darkness from
the pit of the night
and turn into a beacon burning endlessly bright

i gotta follow it
cause everything i own, now
it´s nothing till i give it to you

i can make you find your power
i can make you lose your fear
i can make your body do some very magical things
i´ll make your inhibitions all disappear
i can make tonight forever
or i can make it disappear by the dawn
and i can make you every promise
that has ever been made
and i can make all your demons be gone

but i´m never gonna make it without you
do you really wanna see me crawl
and i´m never gonna make it like you do
making love out of nothing at all

(making love) out of nothing at all
(making love) out of nothing at all
(making love)

out of nothing at all (making love)
out of nothing at all (making love)
out of nothing at all (making love)…

No more :)

Si uite asa, cu un simplu comentariu, s-a scurs toata ura. Cumva s-a smuls un dop de undeva din mine si i-a dat drumul. Puff!! Who am I to judge people? A fost si frumos, a fost si urat, important e ca a fost. Trebuia sa trec prin toate extremele pentru ca asa sunt eu. Setting mood “inlove with life” again. Zen frate.

right back atcha

Pai da. Stiam eu ca asa se intampla. Cum spuneam si mai demult; nu imi purtati mie de grija, eu sunt tare. Eu nu am sentimente. Mie imi trece repede. Puteti sa imi faceti orice, nu sunt mironosita ca altele. Si stii ceva? Mai bine ca tu crezi asta. Prefer, ca de obicei, sa fiu calau decat victima. Mai bine sa crezi ca nu imi pasa decat sa crezi ca sufar ca idioata. Nu as vrea, doamne fereste, sa te simti vinovat. Nu ai de ce la urma urmei. Nu mi-ai facut nimic. Si, ai si tu dreptate: de ce sa sufere doi acolo unde poate sa sufere doar unul? Fair enough.